my purpose in life must be really obscure.

i have no idea what it is.

i feel really lost and in a haze.

what do i do?

millions of people inside of me

I cant wait until i can pull myself together and tell you to fuck off.

i do not like what you are doing.

i dont know myself, so you are messing with the wrong person.

you may think you have some kind of control but you don't

noone does. only i know myself.

if i wasnt so lost, i could be okay.

i think i resent you.

you make me feel like im not good enough, but im letting you do that.

just let me go. please.

just everyone let me go. i dont know why your all holding onto me. i cant fucking deal with this shit. i just want to end it all and be at peace. i hope i never come back. i hope this is the end of the cycle. i dont want another chance after this life.

life is the biggest most wonderful gift, yet the cruelest form of torture.

a paradox that slowly eats up weak people like me.

how did i get so weak, yet strong at the same time.

i am weak by the situations i put myself into, yet strong hopefully i wont let this shit go on for long.

i hope i save myself this time. and someone helps me.

i just want someone who understands me for once in my fucking life. just once i want someone to fucking love and care for me. not degrade and make fun of me. mock me. treat me like shit. im done being walked on, im done being this weak little bitch. thank you for teaching me this lesson.

why is this such a drag